Day 18. Meh Meh.

Depression was worse today. Funny thing about depression - when you're in it? You don't actually want to get out. People, they try to cheer you up and snap you out of it, and you just resent it. You don't want to be cheered up, because in that state all you can think is that "cheery" is absolute bullshit.

You don't want to let it go. You can't let it go.

CONSUMED

Breakfast:

Banana

Cup of Tea

Lunch:

Leftover Pesto Sausage Pasta

Snack:

Oat Bran Pretzels

Dinner:

Red Pepper Hummus

Slice Wheat Bread

Olives

Pellegrino

Dessert:

Licorice with an ennui sauce.

Day 16.

I finally got out of bed and made it to the 9:30 Pilates class at my gym. Funny thing - the demographic of that class is entirely Park Slope women who don't have to work (or work from home). I was the only guy in there, and couldn't help but feel like the UPS Delivery boy on a Desperate Housewives episode. Or, conversely, like a turkey leg in a wolf den. Yikes.

My weight is still about 180 lbs. Hmm.

Made it out safely, though, and made it to my local for a couple of non-alcoholic drinks. Oddly, I didn't even WANT a cocktail. I'm sure that will change.

CONSUMED

Breakfast:

Multi Berry Smoothie

Green Tea

Snack:

Lara Bar

Lunch:

Leftover Sesame Orange Chicken

Brown Rice

Snack:

Greens+ Protein Bar

Dinner:

Amy's No Cheese Organic Pizza

White Bean and Escarole Soup

Hummus

Bar:

Soda and Lime x2

Dessert:

Licorice